The author is experiencing profound grief after the recent death of her husband, which followed a protracted illness. The husband passed away without a final conversation about death, despite prior discussions where he expressed no fear. The author regrets not spending more time with him in his final weeks, feeling she focused too much on practicalities. She is now facing the planned move to her daughter's home alone, a plan made with her husband. Adding to her distress, her loyal dog, who provided comfort during her husband's illness and after his death, has also recently passed away. The author acknowledges the difference in the magnitude of these losses but feels overwhelmed by the cumulative grief. She expresses recriminations, questioning if she did enough to care for her husband. The author finds herself crying daily since her husband's death. She is struggling to cope with these multiple bereavements. The advice given is to lean on loved ones and avoid looking too far into the future.