There’s an itsy-bitsy fear I want to overcome. I will never be a fan, but can I at least be Normal about spiders? | Rebecca Shaw

The author admits to being easily frightened, specifically by huntsman spiders they frequently encounter in their home. They believe it's never too late to change and are trying to overcome their fear of these spiders. This is a personal project, a challenge they've struggled with for their entire life. They choose the huntsman spider due to its size, perceived dominance, and frequent presence. Despite attempts to embrace change, their fear manifests in physical reactions, like shaking and grimacing. To cope with their fear, they try to visualize the spider in a less threatening manner. The author acknowledges this strategy which involves imagining the spiders as relaxed and listening to them. Though the process seems a little silly, this visualization offers a small degree of comfort. The author feels the need to be realistic about their potential for personal improvement. They find this goal particularly important because of how often they encounter the spiders.